Uncle by Winston James was very interesting read and yet surprising. Jake is only 6 years old and yet, he is able to explain what is going on with his confusing thoughts about sexuality. At first, I thought what Jake was feeling towards his uncle was simply like a role-model figure; like masculinity he would want to possess one day when he grows up. But as he starts talking about playing barber with his brother Vince or wanting to watch the "magic" Vince performs, it makes me question about his sexuality or is it a simple sexual curiosity/desire at a young age? Considering that Jake maybe starting to be opening up to his homosexuality, he is confused with his actions as well and feels insecure. When he gets caught swimming under his uncle's legs to see his penis, he says "I feel like I did something wrong". He is continuously conscious of what he is doing and afraid of getting caught by people around him (ex. his mom), which I say is normal for a young boy. But as young as he is, he even questions his actions to the point where he thinks it may be thought as "in league with Satan" if he tells his mom about it. When he also sees Uncle Paul's penis, he freezes and doesn't know what to do, but pee in his pants. It can be seen as a simple shock for a 6 year old boy as he wasn't even able to say a word to correct his mom's misunderstandings who thought the uncle was molesting her child. Overall, this reading had good insights about sexual identity and confusions at a young age.
On the other hand, Butler's Imitation Gender Insubordination was very hard to read but it seemed to have lots of deep thoughts involved in one's identity as a homosexual and the "theory" of coming out as a homosexual individual. I also questioned, what if I was able to understand thoroughly what the reading was saying? Would it have made a difference? because the concept of sexuality and identity itself is very unclear and hard to explain. I also noticed the author questioning as well in the reading.
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